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Essays on the inner life of founders

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The Month I Almost Sold the Company, and What Talked Me Out of It

By Idris Halloran · · 11 min read

An acquirer named a number on a Tuesday, and by Thursday I had already spent it in my head — paid off the loan, told my co-founder, imagined the relief. This essay is about the strange grief of being offered exactly what you once wanted, the spreadsheet I built at two in the morning to prove I should say yes, and the single sentence from a former employee that made me close the laptop instead.

Founders rarely write about the moment the dream becomes optional. We talk about persistence as if it were free, never about the version of yourself who is tired enough to take the exit. I want to sit in that uncomfortable middle for a while, because I think more of us live there than admit it.

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